More introverted than ever

March 20, 2012

It’s the same tired refrain: blogger wishes they blogged more, but doesn’t.

Except while I’ve had ideas for blog entries, and I’m not opposed to sharing them, I just can’t bring myself to do it. It’s not that I’m too tired, or too busy, because since I graduated college I have a decent amount of free time and energy.

But I have realized that blogging is an inherently extroverted activity, in that you’re broadcasting your words to a bunch of people. Twitter is sort of the same in that respect, except since it’s microblogging, it doesn’t feel as big.

And because I’ve had to do a lot of extroverted activities this year, I just can’t bring myself to take on another.

This year, I am working hard to spend more time with people as part of my job. I manage just over 40 people, and while I don’t meet with many of them on a regular basis, I’m trying to communicate and meet with a good amount of them. I’m spending an hour or more with most of my full-timers per week (except third shift, who I only see once a month), and a lot of my student workers are getting more time from me. As an introvert, all this face-to-face communication is draining for me.

I’ve been reading a lot of theology, and I’d like to write more about that. I’d like to find communities online to talk with about it via blogging or other means, and I’d like to be reading other people’s thoughts on these things. But blogging just seems overwhelming. It’s another interpersonal communication, and I’ve got about all I can handle.

Despite that, my journaling and letter-writing is going well. Since these are private, one-to-one, asynchronous communications, I can handle them better. I can fit them in when I have the emotional energy.

Even as I write all this, though, it seems really obvious to me that I should be blogging. These conversations I want to have (about Walter Wink’s theology, and the culture of fear in IT, and management practices and philosophy) aren’t happening right now, partially because more in-person communication would be overwhelming and partially because I don’t know m/any people with whom I could meet regularly to discuss them.

What do you all think? Do you have a blog? What motivates you to write?

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