As I turned the light off and closed my eyes to go to sleep last night, I realized that I should have been writing all evening. My brain was overwhelmed, unable to process and file away everything that happened yesterday, and images flickered through my imagination, the panoply of swirling visions making me ill. I played World of Warcraft last night, first with April, then with Ryan, and enjoyed my evening immensely, but I needed to write.
I feel most balanced and sane when I’ve been engaged in that activity regularly, and the first two weeks after revamping this website, I was on top of the world. I felt good about myself and life in general, but last night I just felt like I was going to throw up. It’s been at least a week since I’ve written, ostensibly because I’ve been too busy. I wasn’t too busy last night, I was just lazy, and I suffered for it.
My brain can’t always handle everything that is thrown at it, and so I need to write it down. Tonight, however, I am taking April out for a nice dinner, maybe we’ll watch a movie, and just spend some more time together before she leaves for New Orleans tomorrow. She’ll be gone a week and a half, so I’ve been trying to spend a lot of time with her.
Camping, by the way, was great. Because we suck, no pictures were taken. The camera was in my bag, and we had lots of good intentions–I was particularly disappointed since I have the shiny new photo gallery now–but we just forgot. Again.
My primary goal while April is gone is to clean the apartment and get it all nice and sparkly before her return. But I also need to start studying and writing, getting things down that have been on my mind for years, and sorting all this out so I can sleep better. There’s potential that I’ll start getting up early to write, because for some reason I have woken up at 5:30 a.m. for the last week and a half, feeling fully rested, where I used to wake up at 7 a.m. still sleepy. We’ll see how Thursday goes.
I’m in training all this week, and still fairly overwhelmed at work. Hopefully, that will diminish by next Friday, when two major projects should be completed. The main thing is to finish the wiki I’ve been building, which will serve as our documentation repository for Banner, and then I need to document the build process and everything. Once that’s done, I’ll feel free again.