Permission to Loaf

Since I transitioned to the Meyer Library so I could run the computer lab on the second floor (during first shift), I’ve had a lot of work to do. The library opens at 7 in the morning, which means I had to shift my day earlier by an hour, but instead of getting off at 4 p.m. I often stay late for meetings, leading to 9 or even 11 hour days. In addition, I’d say I’m 2-3 times busier during the day than I was in the Help Desk.

I haven’t done much writing due to my collarbone injury, but I also haven’t been doing as much because of these long work schedules. I usually make the hours up by taking long lunches (which don’t really shorten my days any) or leaving early on Friday. When I get up at 5:45 a.m. (or if it’s on a day when April has to work, I wake at 5 a.m. when she does) and don’t leave work until 5 or 5:30 (or in the case the case of last Thursday, 6:30, and then I was actually on campus until 8 p.m.), I don’t have much energy for anything.

On the days I get off early, I don’t want to work because I’m recovering from the day(s) before.

Subsequently, there has been a lot of game playing, and not a lot of writing. I feel somewhat guilty about this, but not guilty enough to write I guess. I’m tired, and I need to give myself permission to go a bit slower and take things a little easier.

This coming school year is my last to get my bachelor’s degree. The transition to the library will calm down eventually and the work load will lighen somewhat, though I will continue having 9-10 hour days atleast 1-2 times a week. Actually, once school starts, I’ll have 9-10 hour days everyday to make up for my classes -.-;

Let’s face it, I’m not going to get much writing done in the next year. This summer was my chance to get something accomplished before the fall hit, and I had to go and break an important bone and be unable to write for almost two months. It is well on the mend, which is great, but now I’m super-busy with work. That’s just the way it goes sometimes.

I’m going to keep working, but if I don’t take time off, I’ll get sick and be even less able to work. It’s time to loaf.

3 thoughts on “Permission to Loaf

  1. i sympathize. i when i have a headache, i HAVE to do nothing, but i feel like since i spend so much time doing nothing and in pain, when i’m not in pain i want to do nothing and enjoy it. thus nothing ever gets done… and i feel terrible about it.

  2. It’s definitely time to loaf! I can relate to the schedule and motivation conflicts – this summer was “my time” to accomplish something with my writing as well, but the usual suspects came in to distract, and I’m left with three meager weeks to finish the book I’ve had in mind for months.

    It’s tough working and being in school – I’m doing the same thing as you (working FT, school in between everything else). I’ll be finished this December, so I thought I’d encourage you to hang in there and leave you with this quote. I’ve had it on my bulletin board for a few semesters, and it has helped me keep focus:

    “Perseverance is the capacity to finish well.”

    Hang in there! You can do it!

    1. Thanks for this note, Dee 🙂 I really appreciate the support, and it is helpful to hear that others struggle with the same things.

      If everything goes according to plan, I will graduate in the spring and all will be right with the world. Just one more school year and then I won’t be constrained to trying to get a year’s worth of work done in three measly months!

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