Oh, right, I’m not in college anymore

I started college in 2003 working on a bachelor’s in religious studies. In 2006, I met April and fell in love, and I knew that I was going to need a job and some money before we could get married, so I started pursuing a full-time job and I was hired at Missouri State University in January 2007. Subsequently, I dropped down to part-time as a college student.

And then, due to bad advice from my advisor, I didn’t get the “right kind” of credit hours and it ended up taking an extra two years to finish my BA.

I almost dropped out. Technically, I did drop out for nearly a year, but I went back, and throughout much of my undergrad career, I was desperate to finish. So when I would see an ad from Phoenix University or others, I’d think, “Maybe I could transfer and finish faster!” Whenever I’d see a billboard for Kaplan or another program, I’d wonder if it’d be cheaper and faster to go to them.

Of course, it wouldn’t be. It’d be way more expensive, only slightly faster, and my degree would have been less respected. But this wasn’t a rational thought, it was an emotional one. I wanted to be done so badly.

And now I am done. Not just with my bachelors, I’m done with a master’s degree. But this emotional response, triggered by seeing these ads, is still strong. I see a billboard and think, “Hmm, maybe I should check that out so I could finish faster.”

And then I remember that I’m done. I’m done, and I smile. It’s hard to let go of that response because it’s so ingrained, but remembering that I have gotten all the formal education I need to is pretty great.

While sitting in a too-small seat, not paying attention to a class I’m almost failing

In my defense, I’m only almost failing because I missed an assignment while out of town to attend a wedding. Most weeks, we do nothing, but that particular week we had to put on a play with a group. I wasn’t here, couldn’t do the play, and subsequently missed the points.

It wasn’t as big a deal before, but I just checked grades online and the professor magically doubled how much that assignment was worth, which has dropped me by 10%. Hooray.

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A quick Friday update

I normally schedule blog posts in advance so something can post every Monday, Wednesday, and Friday at 4:30 a.m. Central Standard Time, but I left today open. The hope had arisen that, with finals completed and a rather interesting week in the mix, I’d have something new to write about that would be more topical and relevant. Instead of sitting down to write before bed last night, though, I played Runebound for three hours with my brothers-in-law and then crashed into bed around 12:30 this morning.

As I wrote yesterday, I had been running off about four hours of sleep due to the tornado sirens and whatnot. And while I have a lot I’d like to write (I’ve got 17 drafts saved here in WordPress right now with ideas and partially finished entries), I won’t have any time for them until next week. April graduates from Missouri State University today with a Bachelor of Science in Psychology, so my mom and her brothers came into town yesterday and April’s mother, father, and grandmother will be arriving today. My mom is here through Sunday, as is April’s brother Eric, so the weekend is pretty packed.

I’m hopeful that Eric and I (and whoever else wants to come) might go see Star Trek tomorrow.

But seriously guys, I’m so excited that the semester is over. Between college ministry and school, I’m reclaiming almost ten hours a week. Ten more hours to think and write and edit, bringing my total up to almost twenty a week!. Once my family reunion is over (May 24ish, IIRC) and we return from April’s graduation present (a weekend in Eureka Springs), I can really pound the ground and get something churned out. My goal is to have a book done by the end of July.

Hey, if you’ve read this post all the way through, tell me: what would you like to see at SilverPen this summer? Do you want more stories? More poems? More theological ramblings or historical essays? I want to work on and polish my videos so my book reviews are a bit better, but I’ve considered doing some other video stuff too. What are you, my dear friends, interested in? Let me know!