Post-Thanksgiving, Post-London, but Pre-Vacation

I have four more work days this year, including today, and then I’m on holiday until January. That’s pretty exciting.

Staying on my diet through Thanksgiving was pretty easy. I just ate turkey, ham, and green beans, and saw my siblings and some extended family at my mom’s house. It had been almost 10 years since I had seen my brothers. One of my nieces was there and I hadn’t seen her in 24 years.

Then, the Monday after Thanksgiving, I went to London. I was able to stay on keto through the first week without too much trouble. Salads with chicken, a McDonald’s salad with a couple of hamburger patties on top, roast chicken and squash and other veggies. Not too bad.

The second week was a loss, though. It’s hard to avoid rice when you’re having Thai food every other meal. I didn’t drink a single beer, but I did drink two bottles of wine one night. There was a pot pie for dinner one day, and pizza another, and I lacked for choices. So not ideal, but I tried to manage my portion size at least, and I think avoiding beer helped.

I was back on keto as soon as I got home last Friday, and the re-adjustment has been a bit tough. I’m hungrier than I was, so I made a fat bomb yesterday comprised of almond butter, cocoa, cream cheese, and heavy whipping cream. Then I made hot chocolate last night with almond milk, cocoa, some vanilla powder, cinnamon, a bit of xanthan gum, some swerve, and a bit of heavy whipping cream. I didn’t have much sugar while in London, but it was enough to have me craving sweets again.

All’s well that end’s well:

  • Starting weight: 240
  • Goal weight: 190
  • Current weight: 223

It’s neat to see these numbers, because I forget between blog posts what I weighed. I’m weighing myself every 1-3 days and logging it into MyFitnessPal so it’s pretty incremental, then I blog and see I’ve dropped 5 pounds since my last weigh-in.

This week, I’m finally adding in the exercise that I was supposed to do in week 2. I have a new battery for my heart rate monitor, so I got that working this morning, then rowed for 20 minutes and stayed in the target range for 7, per Mark Sisson’s book. He recommends 2 hours of exercise every week, so I figure if I do this 20 minute routine every morning, 6 days a week, that should set me right. We’ll see if I can keep that up, though. It was nice to listen to NPR while rowing this morning.

I have an 8 a.m. meeting, so I better get going. Heading into the office this week since I haven’t been there in almost 3 weeks.

Week 3 of keto

I forgot to blog at the end of week 2. Or rather, I remembered a day late, and then never got around to it.

As of this morning:

  • Starting weight: 240
  • Goal weight: 190
  • Current weight: 228

Week 2 of the 21 day reset was supposed to include exercise, but that never happened either. On day 11, I finally adjusted to keto and was no longer hungry or craving. Because the keto diet wasn’t too different from what I was already eating, I think this was quicker than most people experience. No more Andy’s frozen custard. No more beer. No more potatoes or rice. Other than that, I kept eating the meat and vegetables I was, but I added more fat by way of avocados, butter, cheese, and avocado oil.

Unfortunately, my adjustment to keto tempted me to try intermittent fasting, and I found this similarly easy. I started skipping breakfast every day and eating all of my meals between noon and 8 p.m. And it’s great that I’m able to do that now, but it actually slowed my metabolism and caused me to retain more water. It turns out that intermittent fasting is supposed to be once every couple of weeks, not every single day.

So I cut that out, and started losing weight again. I got down to 229 on day 12, then at day 17 I was back up to 232, and as of this morning (day 21), I’m down to 228. So that’s cool.

The other focuses for week 2 were stress management and sleep. Sleep is going pretty well… April was sleeping poorly and having neck pain from her pillow, so I gave her mine, which was one of the top-rated memory foam pillows when I got it. It’s really good for side sleeping, but just a bit too thick for me. It turns out that she used it the last time I was travelling and it helped her a lot, so it made sense for her to keep it. I bought a Casper pillow, which I was skeptical of but they had it at Target, so I decided to give it a try and return it if I hated it. As it turns out, no matter how I lay on that pillow, it is comfortable.

My stress levels have been pretty good these last two weeks. Things are finally calming down at work such that I’ve had time to actually think and plan and get caught up. And with the additional mental energy that keto is helping provide, I finish the day at 5 p.m. and can still function in the evenings, which is wonderful.

I can’t say much about what’s going on at work, but I’m making some plans for the coming year and I’m pretty excited about it. I don’t quite know how we’re going to get where we’re going… because that’s what I’m working on: the how. I’m currently reading The DevOps Handbook and trying to figure out how to apply it to training development, and I’m really looking forward to being in London in a week (and a few days). I’ll be having many conversations with different people about how we can work better together, which is pretty much my favourite subject after Marvel comic books.

London is going to be a real challenge for this diet. But I’m going to do my level best to stick with it.

Next week: Thanksgiving. How’d it go? Stop by to find out.

First week on keto

Last Friday, I started the keto diet. I had meant to blog every day and keep a record, but obviously that didn’t happen, and I’m not going to start now. But I did want something I could look back on someday, so here we are.

I get an annual physical from my doctor, and last year (October 2016) when talking about my weight, he suggested I substitute coconut oil and coffee for my regular breakfast of eggs, bacon, and coffee. Not that eggs and bacon are unhealthy, but he was recommending some intermittent fasting and increasing fat content. We had talked about how I hadn’t been able to keep my weight down, and how I was going to try Whole 30 in January, and what advice did he have? Not much at the time, though he did direct me to a few different diets that weren’t all that different from what I was doing.

April effectively eats a paleo diet, so when we eat together, I tend to do the same. But I also like to go out for Chinese food a lot, and I can have ice cream, and other things that are high in sugar. I don’t drink soda, but I don’t avoid cake or cookies either.

When I did Whole 30 earlier this year, I lost 20 pounds. Then, over the course of three months, I traveled for two of them and gained all 20 pounds back. Eating healthy while traveling just wasn’t feasible for me.

So when I had my physical last month, my doctor was much more explicit and referred to keto by name. I had heard of it before, but hadn’t seriously looked into it. My impression was that it was pretty extreme, but the benefits he described really appealed to me.

  • Its emphasis on burning fat rather than carbs tends to contribute to more mental energy, which I have really been feeling a need for. My job is very mentally intensive, and after about 7 hours, I’m just done. I can’t think anymore. But it’s only 4 p.m., and there’s still so much to do! So if keto would help me work my full day and still have some mental capacity in the evening, that’d be swell.
  • Because our body can store way more fat than it can glucose (carbs), this facilitates fasting. Once I adjust to the diet, he said, I could probably skip meals when traveling until I could find a more healthy option. This is particularly relevant in airports and when on flights when options are sometimes very slim.

It has been a week now (I started last Friday). I’m logging every meal to MyFitnessPal, eating no sugar (not even on Halloween!), and keeping my carbs low (between 17g and 40g every day this week). By way of comparison, a typical day for me in the past would be around 200g of carbs, +/- 55.

Fat, on the other hand… is actually only a bit higher than it was. And protein is probably going down a bit. Apparently, too much protein is problematic, though not as much as too many carbs.

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I’m reading The Keto Reset Diet as my guide and have found it somewhat helpful. Since I was already on a near-paleo/primal diet, the adjustment to keto has been super easy for me. No keto flu, and only a couple of days of cravings to push through. Being able to eat cheese and dark chocolate really helps with that.

This is the easiest diet I’ve ever tried; it just works for me. I have always struggled to hit the macros (carbs, fat, protein) that MFP set as my goal, but on keto, it’s coming naturally.

And in the first week, I’m down about 7 pounds. The vast majority of that was water; keto tends to eliminate foods that cause inflammation, and also cuts out all sugar, which decreases water retention a lot. But I’d wager that 1-2 pounds of it was fat, which is great.

  • Starting weight: 240
  • Goal weight: 190
  • Current weight: 233

At 240, I was just over the line for “obese” with a BMI of 30.8 (obese is anything above 30). Overweight is 25-29.9, and 190 should put me around 24.4. Of course, BMI isn’t just about height and weight, but for now, these numbers suffice. Once I get to 190, I might decide to shoot for 175 or 180, but I’m not sure.

I weighed 160 when I graduated high school, which I think was too low. Based on the numbers it wasn’t, but when I look at pictures from back then, my cheeks look sunken and I don’t think I was as healthy as I could be. One of my main struggles with food is that I love having the opportunity to eat. When I was younger, I couldn’t always get a full meal when I wanted, and was often hungry. Now, I can eat whenever and whatever I want, and I rejoice in that freedom.

But I also feel strongly that it’s not healthy. I worry about diabetes as I get older. I worry about the additional weight on my joints. I worry about the impact my diet has on my mental faculties, and some of the recent research that links diet to degenerative diseases like alzheimers. So I need to make a change.

Hopefully this is one I can stick with. I started it last week so I can get through the 21-day reset before Thanksgiving. I’m going to do my best (and I think I’ll be successful!) to stick with it through Thanksgiving. Right after Thanksgiving, I fly to London for two weeks, which will be the real test. Can I avoid alcohol, avoid sugar, and stick with high-fat and high-protein while dealing with ~20 hours of travel each way and being in a foreign country? We’ll see.

For now, I feel pretty good, and I’m sticking with this one. Whole 30 felt like a slog and I was pretty happy when the 30-day commitment ended. I felt better at the end of it, but I never felt satisfied. On keto, I feel satisfied while also eating foods I like. (It helps that Aldi provides avocados and cheese and nuts at a lower price than other places.)

In week 2 of this reset, I add in exercise. Next week, I’ll write about the 21 day reset’s focus on stress management, sleep, and movement.

Paying off student loans is as exciting as getting student loans

I was helping teach an orchestra class, pacing back and forth along the back row of high school students to listen closely to their performance and give correction, when my high school counselor, Mrs. Lindsey, came into the room and excitedly beckoned me over. She had the results of my college placement exam, the ACT, and had come up to the Annex to tell me that I had gotten a 30.

My legs gave out and I fell to my knees. Tears filled my eyes and I cried out in excitement. I didn’t have money for college, and that score meant that I had just earned a full-ride scholarship to the university where I had already been accepted. I don’t think I knew how stressed I really was about that, and like a dam breaking, the stress flooded away from me.

Then I went to college, with no idea what I was doing, and lost my scholarship after the first year. To maintain it, you need a GPA above 3.0 (or was it 3.25? I don’t recall), and you had to take 15 hours per semester. Also, it turned out that my scholarship didn’t include room and board, and the university required that I live in the residence hall my freshman year. So I was working 30 hours a week, and spending 21 hours a week in classes (including the symphony), plus homework and practice. That combined with a few bad professors and a couple of disastrous relationships contributed to me ending the year with around a 2.3 GPA.

But I was relieved. I dropped my hours down to 12 a semester, and having a job meant I could move out of the dorms and into an apartment where my expenses were cut in half. I dropped out of the symphony too, so my schedule became much more reasonable all the way around. But it meant that I needed student loans, and a lot of them.

I didn’t have to get as much as some, but over the 3.5 years I needed loans, it came to around $20,000. That burden wasn’t as heavy for me as others I know because I had an income, lived within my means, and had a plan to pay them back. Others aren’t so lucky, and I know people with loans in the six-figures such that their monthly payments are $800+ per month. That’s back-breaking. Most of my interest rates were locked in at 1.6% originally (oh the early 2000s!), so it wasn’t too bad.

But it was a debt, and having grown up with my parents filing bankruptcy and having to deal with the threat of losing our house, and not having enough food to eat, and all the problems that come with poverty, I was keen to discharge it.

You don’t have to pay on most student loan debts while you’re in school, and it took me 8.5 years to get my bachelor’s degree. I took a year and a half off school after graduation to decide what I wanted to do next, during which I made a couple of small payments, then I enrolled in a master’s program. 2.5 years later, I graduated and started making payments for real.

And 6 years later:

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One of the benefits of student loans is that I learned you don’t need a scholarship to go to college. It’s more expensive than it was a generation or two ago, and already it is more expensive than when I started; while tuition hasn’t gone up tremendously in the last 15 years, interest rates have gone way up. But once I got into my freshman year, I learned that I needn’t have been so stressed. If I hadn’t won the scholarship, the total impact would have been around another $6-7,000 in loans. Not the end of the world.

At any rate, they’re paid off now. Like on a birthday, which is supposed to mark a milestone in our lives, I feel no different than I did yesterday. My next goal is to pay off credit cards again (they should be back to $0 by the middle of next month), max out our Roth IRA for the year, and start building up our savings again. The last couple of years of new house + repairs have drained it. But we’re on-track, and reducing debt is nice.

If I feel anything emotionally, it’s a mix of bitterness and pride. I wasn’t worried about paying them off, or stressed about it, so there’s no real relief. There’s just residual frustration that I needed them to begin with, and pride that I did all this on my own.

My first loan was disbursed on August 13th, 2003. The last on September 27th, 2006. Then I started working full-time at the university in January 2007 and my benefits paid for my classes (though I had to drop further down to 6 hours per semester to make that work).

I continue to look up regularly, up and to the right from the sofa in my office, to gaze at the two diplomas hanging on the wall there. I am happy every day that I am not in college. Every day when I can think, “I never have to do that again,” fills me with joy. With the loans paid, that book is truly closed.

Some thoughts on Netflix’s Iron First and how it’s actually kind of good

No spoilers (provided you’ve seen the trailer or have even a cursory knowledge of who/what Iron Fist is).

A lot of people I know on Facebook appear to dislike Iron First. I see a lot of comments about people getting bored after 1-2 episodes, hating how dumb Danny (Iron First) Rand is, disliking the cultural appropriation, finding it odd that they have a Singaporean-Chinese-Zambian-English actress playing a Japanese woman, and being frustrated by simple solutions not being tried first (e.g. hey Danny, why not have a shower, get some shoes, and generally look a bit less absurd before you go into the headquarters of Rand Enterprises? And then you could, I don’t know, tell them something that only you and they would know in episode 1 instead of episode 3 or 4.)

But I think there’s something to be said about Iron Fist, and it’s that the character of Danny Rand is internally consistent. That’s one of the things that keeps me watching the show.

Danny was 10 when his plane crashed and he was adopted by the monks of Kun Lun. From what we can tell about him based on what little backstory we are given throughout the series, he was spoiled and bribed to do what his parents wanted. He was allowed to ride his skateboard through corporate headquarters, was always roaming around the building and finding ways in and out of it, at least sometimes refused to do what his parents wanted unless they bribed him (like with a trip to the circus), and just generally fits the stereotype of the spoiled rich kid.

This led to him being arrogant, and then he went to a monastery and was trained that “doubt leads to death.” So you take his arrogance and you turn the self-confidence dial up to 11.

As near as we can tell, his only education at the monastery was in fighting and farming. He has a 5th grade education in reading, mathematics, and science, and possibly not even that because he was home schooled. Considering the implications regarding being spoiled, it’s not hard to guess that his schooling wasn’t rigorous. Danny’s father certainly didn’t appear to drive him as hard as Ward and Joy’s father drove them. If their plane hadn’t crashed, I imagine that Danny Rand would have turned out a lot like Oliver Queen prior to the Queen’s Gambit going down.

So when Danny returns to New York and walks into the headquarters to find the people he thinks of as his long-lost family, I can kind of understand that. He expected to be welcomed back with joy (no pun intended) and celebration. He doesn’t know any better.

Another facet of Danny’s personality, that we get mostly from the comics but a bit from the show, is that he is generally naive and innocent, and he thinks the best of people. He learned honor from the monks and assumes everyone is as honorable as him (which later gets him in trouble with the board of Rand Enterprises). His parents seemed to love him and shelter him, and except for Ward being a bully to him as a kid, he lived in a safe bubble. While the plane crash was traumatic, he was then taken in by these fantastic people and literally lived in heaven for 15 years. He isn’t used to people lying to him. We know from the comics that not everyone in Kun Lun was kind to him–he was, after all, being trained to be a living weapon–but people were generally straight-forward.

So you’ve got this guy with no education, no street-smarts, who is absolutely arrogant and self-confident, and who thinks the best of everyone… but there’s a darker set of traits influencing Danny Rand too. He likely has PTSD from the plane crash. As part of the Iron Fist’s training and duties, he was to “kill” Danny Rand and become wholly the Iron Fist, but he clearly chose to go back to New York and try to resume some of his life as Danny Rand. He is internally conflicted, and this conflict has a negative impact on him.

I don’t really enjoy the Iron Fist comics, but I do think they’re internally consistent, and I do find the character kind of interesting. What we have here isn’t Tony Stark, who is a narcissist. Nor do we have Oliver Queen, who is driven by guilt. Nor do we have Batman, who is just super complicated and there’s no way to talk about Batman without limiting the discussion to a particular iteration of Batman… What I’m getting at is that Danny is another rich white superhero who thinks he can save the world, but he is different from the other rich white superheroes we’ve seen.

Danny doesn’t particularly like himself. We get this more in the comics, and while I’m only in episode 9 of the Netflix series, I think we’ll see more of it as the show goes on. The conflict between Danny Rand and Iron Fist is hard, and he doesn’t know his place in the world. What’s more, the world doesn’t work the way he expects it to, and no matter how hard he tries, it refuses to work the way he wants. I have always felt like, for many of the other superheroes, they face an ever-escalating series of conflicts and they overcome and we get catharsis. Iron Fist fails over and over again, not because he doesn’t defeat the bad guys, but because his goals are so monumental that they’re impossible to achieve. And unlike Tony Stark, the futurist who can invent what’s needed to change the world, Danny Rand has no idea how to make a real, lasting difference. He’s not smart enough to wield his corporate empire, and he’s not strong enough to stop all the bad guys.

Iron Fist is a B-list hero; he was deliberately written to be on the B-list. Iron Fist gives us an opportunity to see, “What would happen if a regular guy got super powers?” Yes, this regular guy is a multi-billionaire, but the money is largely irrelevant to the story or Danny’s character, except insofar as it shaped the first 10 years of his life.

OK, so that’s why I think the show has some worth. It’s internally consistent and I can see where it’s coming from. That said, I mostly watch it for:

  • The Joy-Ward story arc. I want to like Joy but am not sure I should. I want to hate Ward but am not sure I can. And despite them both being of questionable moral fiber, their sibling love is something I admire. They’re great characters.
  • Claire. I mean, come on. I laughed long and hard at her saying, “Sweet Christmas” right before she knocked a guy out. She’s a straight-shooter and I love that she ties all the Marvel TV shows together. My only regret is that she hasn’t facilitated a meet-up yet.
  • A lot of people like Colleen, but I think she’s just OK. She’s a bit too much of a supporting foil for me, and I wish she was more independent and stronger on her own.
  • Tie-ins. I love all the ways the various Marvel TV shows tie together. I have a deep longing for tie-ins to the movies too. They’re going to do a Defenders movie, I think, and I am hopeful that Doctor Strange will at least have a cameo in it.

 

Adaptavist Live: The Adaptavist Atlassian Ecosystem Podcast

As part of Learning and Development at Adaptavist, we launched a podcast this week. It’ll be published every Monday sometime during the day (depending on which country’s “day” you’re in) and you can listen to it!

We’ve already recorded the second one, and will be doing the third one this Friday. If you have any ideas or want to hear us talk about something in particular, send an email to learn@adaptavist.com.

Migrating from WordPress Server to WordPress.com

Last year, when my site on Bluehost came up for renewal, I decided that I ought to migrate to WordPress.com to save some money. I’ve been spending around $133 per year for my domains, hosting, and storage, and I just don’t blog enough to justify that anymore. Paying Bluehost was worth it to move off the server that used to run on a computer in my living room, but it’s not worth it anymore, especially because my sites have been going down multiple times a day.

I have been working on migrating to WordPress.com for the last week or so. I first had to roll back a test migration, which took a surprisingly long amount of time; all the pages and posts had to be deleted, and the process kept timing out. Then, I had to re-migrate everything so this site had the latest posts from both mstublefield.com and meta-manage.com.

I get one free domain with the cheapest plan here on WP (which was $36 instead of $133 for the year), so I’m letting meta-manage.com go.

Don’t expect any more frequent blogging than I have been doing… but know that things are going fantastically at Adaptavist. I’ll likely publish here in March to point you at some of the stuff we’ll be releasing then.